Two and a Half Years of Singleness

So does being single ever get old? I mean really. Being alone when most of your friends or the people around you are spending their every waking minute with their 'special someone'? It sucks honestly. I can't believe that it has been this long. I haven't been on a date in over two years. My longest relationship, was four months. *Sarcastic "woo"* I was on FB (facebook) the other day and I read a little status quote from a girl I went to high school with saying that she was celebrating her two year anniversary with her 'amazing man' and I couldn't help feeling jealous. I know it's wrong to feel this way, and you know she's happy. So it's great for her and all. But it brings me back to the fact that I have no special someone. I don't have a Mr. Right yet. I am laughing at myself as I rant this off in typing. I guess it sounded better in my head... but it is true. It gets lonely being single for long periods of time. And all I can do is try, TRY, to be patient--which takes loads of prayer to actually pull of in any aspect, to be happy with how life is right now. And in almost every other area, I am happy... almost content. There is always that hole, that sinking feeling though, especially when holidays roll around; such as Valentine's Day which was celebrated this month... That day is boring when you don't have anyone to share it with. I know that I am not the only person in the world with this problem, never thought I would be. But truthfully, I had not expected to be where I am today--not like this. It's funny how God lets things pan out the way they do. I just proves that when you have faith and trust in Him, you grow. And when you grow in Him, He allows you to see His Will for you. I have faith that when the time is right, God will bring my future husband into my life, or bring him to my attention if I already know the guy. I just have the inward struggle with getting myself out of my own way so that I can have eyes that see and ears that hear. I guess that is another goal I have for myself. Listen to God's Word and he will bless me, as I have blessed Him with my actions and words. It takes time, and it's not like I am old or anything. I have 'all the time in the world', some people have told me. Which is true in some ways. I do have time. I am just ready, only emotionally, for the boyfriend which leads to fiance then husband... I wish I was there physically and had my act together. Then again, that's what I'm working on anyway.